One of the more popular promises of Jesus is found in Matthew 20:16:

So the last will be first, and the first will be last.

I think its universal popularity comes from the fact that we all see ourselves as a victim of sorts.  “So-and-so ignored me today, but someday, the last shall be first!”  There’s probably some truth to this, but if I’m being honest, I have to admit that by nearly every world standard, I am not last, but first.

I am a white, middle-class, healthy, able-bodied female born in the United States to two parents who paid for my college education.  I have a lot of privilege.

When I think about this promise in light of eternity, part of my soul gets really excited.  I imagine a woman sold into sexual slavery brought before the throne of God to stand, happily and proudly, while all of heaven cheers for her.  I imagine the orphans in Mongolia getting a standing ovation, or the men and women strugging in the slums of India being showered with riches.  And that is so great.

But another part of me wonders:  what about me?   Continue reading →